Weren't His Missing Rib

In the name of Allah, most gracious and most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, praise and blessings be upon His messenger.

Tried to sleep but I couldn't. My eyes were wide open as I kept thinking of him, starring at those images of him in front of me. I thought, the action of listening to our 'compilation album' which contain all of the love songs he ever dedicated to me, will made me recall the sweet memories we had been through together but end up with dripping eyes.

Even while am typing out this entry, the tears come flowing out of me non-stop-ly. It's getting worst as if I've heard the Lelaki Ini by Anuar Zain, one of the lullabies songs supposed to be that he ever sang for me. Am crying out loud but with my palms over and somehow I bite my double cloth blanket hard so that I won't wake my roomate up.

I still remember, how funny he was when he's talking with my friends and ask them, 'Mana sayang saya?' when he wanted to speak with me. How funny he's pronouncing those Arab character while he's reciting Al-Fatihah, how funny he was asking me what cloths to wear during his class and how funny he was asking me on how many scoops needed to cook a rice. I missed those things very much!

Put his white t-shirt on since yesterday, hoping that the smell of him could vanished out my gallons of missing towards him. I wish I could cuddled the Mr Bean's teddy that he gave me before so that I feel recharged and wake up with tough and strong spirit again on the next day.

Normally I used to write a love letter for him each year for a special day like this but I refused to do it today. I feel a bit miserable as amma on the month, which I couldn't do any for him. What I can do is, asking the Boss help to pray for him in front of Kaabah. Alhamdulillah...

Oh Allah, forgive me for kept remembering him. It's not like I couldn't accept the fact that you're taking him with you but I really love this man and how I just hope that you could send him in my dreams once saying that he's okay at least. And how I really appreciate those seconds you've lend him for me even for a while as I know you knew better above all. Tough he weren't mine, but he's my first love and normally first love would remain.

I wonder, if I weren't his missing rib then, who's rib I've been created into? Al-Fatihah~

The 5th Anniversary

In the name of Allah, most gracious and most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, praise and blessings be upon His messenger.

Hey, it is April 21! Don't you think time flies damn fast huh? Happy 5th Anniversary to my beloved Mr Processor! Every heartbeats is still yours up till now and I'm pretty sure that you'll always on the top in a place named heart <3

May you rest peacefully there and please don't you dare to flirt around with those beautiful angels up there huh? I've promised to always recite Quran and pray for you as much as I could for your own good sake much often than I used to be. In shaa Allah...

Chemistry Mystery

In the name of Allah, most gracious and  most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, peace and blessings be upon His messenger.

I wonder, have you ever felt that someone whom really close with you even tough you realize that at the first place you haven't that close with him/her? I mean, it is not the matter of time, how long you get to know him/her but it is because of the chemistry you guys fallen into.

I did felt that way whenever am with him cause am freely talk something that I couldn't tell others. Seriously, am still that secretive person. He even mentioned that whenever he's with me, he felt like he's with his families.

Praise to Allah, He send me someone who can heard and seen me for who I am. I can feel the peace and secure around me but people might think it differently as if you had an opposite gender as your close one. Hmmm... typical malaysian I guess.

I don't care about others perceptions, I just concern on how I may look in front of Allah itself. As He knew me even better. Husnudzon buddies!

Freaked Out Moment

In the name of Allah, most gracious and most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, peace and blessings be upon His messenger.

There are only three of us left, so we decided to mess around either at Menara or library. We separated as I'd really really love to stay at the library while Az and Su was going to the Menara 8C. I was patiently searched for my assignment sources while appearing online. Okay, itu benda wajib! :P

Finally I can manage myself to perform my Asr prayer jamaah even am the only muslimah in the mosque. Wo-wo please don't freaked out! The most incredible things is am being an imaam for Maghrib prayer as Az ask me to whenever am joining them at Menara. :O

I don't feel like I deserved it. There's a lot more things I need to improve. Am not perfect tough but amma honoured when people do offered me. Thanks Az for the faith you have in me.

Enjoying our dinner at Sri Lada, as the cafe was not operated during this mid sem break. Hell Heck yeah? It's mid sem break kot, not like final one! Pity the rest who don't have transportation. Luckily Odah left her car for us. Thanks sweetie!

Tanjung Mas visit

In the name of Allah, most gracious and most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, praise and blessings be upon His messenger.

It's my second day am here at Malacca. Blessed. Am so happy with my new so called family. They treat me well as am apart of them. Begin the day with variety instant breakfast, also got Lontong but not prepared by auntie. They just bought it and how amma supposed to expect that they might cook something special as they have just hosting a wedding reception yesterday?

We're helping them to do mini gotong-royong to clean up the messed caused from the reception. We're in charge for brushing up the outdoor tiles for the whole house. Kinda tired but we do enjoy whatever things we're done together kan girls?

Going out as we planned, headed to Tanjung Mas. While on the way there, we have few selfies pic together with Kara but the image of the driver still could pop-up somewhat. However, I refuse to attach together as am afraid that people will copy the in-attitude action. bhahaha...

Photogedik!

VVIP's coming!

Meet my car, and my unofficial driver, Kara.

Nak sentuh jugak!

This is us, crapping around! :D

Seems like we're coming at the right time as there will be held a talk with Tun M tonight but we're in rush, couldn't join them in. No wonder there's a lot of people and police keep escorting the site.

Done touring around Tanjung Mas, we're headed to Muar Mosque to perform our Maghrib there. Okay, previously we do perform our Asr there too but the pics kinda messed up. So, see for yourself then.

The funniest part is while waiting, we still able to snap pics like kid, running here and there just to make it memorable for us. Play a lot, huh? Come on, it's cool around here, how come we just say NO?!

Listening to the non-stop-talking lady :/

the camwhoring ladies!

Bride to be? :P

Peace yo!

My head got hit with a big rock, so no wonder I can't stand still.

Does the i-City at Shah Alam or Muar?

 At night, we're sending off Kara at the Muar bus station as right after we're finished our prayer. We're struggling deep down inside to let her go but we believe that we're gonna meet her sooner or later, in sha Allah.

On the way back, we manage to drop by at the nearby supermarket to buy groceries before going to Opah's house. We're capable to have girls talk together and appreciate the gifted times well. I knew, Bul really wanted to talk something to me like she used to be.

Stay calm darling, Allah will always there for you.

When we arrived there at Opah's house, there were few cousins of Bul too while their eyes keep watching the ABP-BH. I'm not used to watch television as much and then am chitchatting with Opah as I've missed my late Tok very much. I even offered her my massage services.

Did I ever told ya that am good at massaging? ;)

Bul's Bro Wedding Reception

In the name of Allah, most gracious and most merciful. All praise and thanks are due to Allah, peace and blessings be upon His messenger.

As am awake, I could see the 'TV3' memos on the desk. Enough to make me smile. Thanks Nana for staying up late at night for the sake of helping me out. I owed you a lot! Sorry for disturbing your quality of time to sleep as I really need to see you before my leave.

Moving out from home a bit late as I've promised. Sick of travelling, damn tired! Rushing to BTS. BTS or TSB what so ever, still the same as it' funny to think of how am having a silly argument with G regarding the location's name. Blerrrrghh! This was my first experience taking bus here so not to mention how freaked out I was back then. Very airport-ish style. :O

I can't imagine that am waiting patiently for about an hours as my ticket supposed to be around 10.45am. Hell heck yeah! That's the reason why am playing Plant vs Zombie to fill in the gap in between. Bulat kept calling and texting me as she's trying to estimate what time I'll be around Muar as it is nearer to Sungai Rambai compared to Malacca Central.

As usual, my battery won't last for hours as it loops on the half way of my journey. Sorry, my life would turn out to be boring as if I didn't hear music. Am so helpless! Safely arrived around 1pm. Need to wait for another minutes as I couldn't inform Bul, waiting at the same place as before.

Suddenly I saw few people waving at me inside a car, pretending to ignore but then when I realized it was them, am quickly grab my bags on. Yeah, it is Toyata Wish kot, the so called car to be mine in future later kot. Perasan!

Thanks to Allah, they've had come after 30 minutes or else am end up dying with loads of people there.

Luckily the car got no tinted mirror, or else I'll change my wedding theme kurung right away. I knew, how bad they were to have the same theme colour to be captured altogether during the photoshoot especially for a moment like this. Since we only had the chance to met once in a blue moon.

Heading to a bakery shop to take the wedding cake. I thought all the things had arranged accordingly, how come the wedding cake had been overlooked? I felt bad for them in a sudden as I tend to come a bit late and doing nothing.

Setting up the double-storey cake as soon as I arrived there instead of changing my blue kurung. I should, because the bride and the groom already welcoming our arrival there :P

Perghhhhh... meleleh siot!

 Tried to waste my time as I really hate crowded circumstances am going to dive into as normally it is countable how often am going to wedding reception tough. Prefer to stay in the room more but come to think of Kara's waiting for me, I've tried to make it fast. Even not so fast actually -_-

Almost forgot to introduce you to my best-girlfriends ever on planet Earth! Cantik kan mereka-mereka ini? ;')

Boleh jua kalo Auntie mau join, :P

As am coming out from the 'hive' late, could only manage to capture this for your view. I was like about to join them grabbing for the candies too but thinking of wearing this heels with kurung, I can only wished for it. Kang tak memasal ada suara sumbang mengatakan, 'Buang tebiat gamaknya orang tu  ni!' kang merana badan lak.

Enjoying myself watching over two love birds in front of me on the pelamin. Both are meant to be together, as the Malay phrase goes, 'sama cantik sama padan'. Subhanallah!

Threwing candies, #Johorian style I guess.

The host in the house,
Bul's really had such a wonderful family! <3

Am not really there into the event flow as my mind kept thinking of my beloved brother and his friends as he kept mentioning he's about to come earlier before and I was waiting for him like crazy as I really missed him so! Eating the menus served in front of me while my eyes starring around the main entrance.

As soon as he called me, am waving my hands towards him and left my plate containing half of Nasi Minyak with Ayam Golek and unlisted menus behind and walking towards him. I felt sorry for Kara, as I left her behind eating alone. My bad! I was too happy to meet him anyway hopefully she do understand. Thus, am invited them to join us as Kara didn't even mind. So, open table buddy!

Special appearance of the day, commandos in da house!!

Am trying to treat them well, equally as my friends. But yeah, somehow you'll probably missed out things off. Sorry.

They were so interested to be chat with, however am so sick of one of Din's friends who kept asking me my friend's numbers. That's why Bul's walked out from the circle. Blerrgggghhhhh! But he's dam funny! I still remember how Zana and him arguing about Palapes-Army thingy as she's a Palapes herself from UUM. Am back off as I didn't know any. :P

As am so concentrated chatting with my dear and his sweetheart which is my Mama's on the phone, Zana asked me to snap few pictures together as she's about to leave. Luckily Din understand me well and he'll allowing  me to join her as he knows how uncomfortable I was to leave him behind. Thnaks :')

There's so much pictures of us, so I decided to do animated gif format. But don't get too excited, not all of them are included! bhahahhahah...

With the both mempelai the movie, :P

The fantastic four bersanding, finally~

Eh eh, Boleh lak dak Haziq ni mengacau.
Nak interframe jugak ke cemana ni?

Bagus, duduk dendiam kat bawah yer?

Eh, dia angkut geng lah pulokkk!

Well, I just hope the pelamin would not collapsed for sure real :P

Enough is enough kan? Din and co had to leave, followed by Zana while Kara planning to go after them. I'll probably left alone :'(. But then, it just my luck as there's no after 8pm bus ticket to JB, wehooooo! Can have a pillow talks with my beloved lah!

Totally in love with them <3

I bet there's a load of works await us for these few days ahead. Bye for now, xoxo :D

P/s; It is funny thinking of how Zana been caught red handed as Auntie didn't know she's going out with her boyfriend. She quickly ran away from Bul and haven't had the chance to meet Auntie as she's avoiding from being lectured by her mother. LOL.